Necessity V. Desire

Ever since I can remember, that being Kindergarden, I had a thing for art. Not just a thing but a real calling for art. I remember I used to always draw figure skaters and colorful rainbows and such. I then began looking into music at around 10 years old and broke my wrist at the age of 12 thus ending my violin persuit. I decided to go back to art in an attempt to pass the 7th grade. Even with a broken wrist, I still did good drawings with my left hand now. Why am I writing about this you may ask? It is because looking over at cousin's daughter's blog, I realized that she went for it and persued art. I on the other hand, decided to study Criminal Justice and now I'm heading for an MBA/JD of Law which although sounds great, isn't really what I'm 100% interested in. Don't get me wrong, I like all of that legal stuff and being able to make six figures a year based on my education. However, I nonetheless enjoy painting and photography just that much more! I am told to go into make-up, photography, advertising, cartooning, theatrical make-up etc. In other words I'm told to unleash the artist within me. Not too long ago did I want to go to Parson's School of Design at Altos De Chavon in the Dominican Republic in order to go back to the country where my parents came from and study Painting. I was excited about persuing the Bachelor's I always wanted but then I came back to reality and starting looking at Grad Schools in order to get the other degrees because my Bachelor's alone is simply NOT enough. I need to be inspired again. I miss art and thanks to society I had to put that to the side. I feel like its time to be me again. I only feel right when I'm creating art. Not reports!

First Entry

I refuse to keep this box empty, however, I am listening to New Divide from Linkin Park while I fade away into this tipsiness that I am experiencing at the moment! Although I am in the process of knocking out, I feel that I need to leave you guys with a couple of thoughts!

The first one is as follows:

is ANYONE really truthful to you?

is ANYONE worth your love or your comprehension when matters of the heart come in the midst of things?

is there someone that even though you consider them you're utmost personal confidante, will fail you at some point?

These points scare me! however, if there is an anomaly in everything that has been taught to me then there will be no mercy on the instructors whom have harnessed the true identity of my people and those around me! Until these tests come out to be positive, this people, must remain to be below our social status due to stigma.